Here I thought 2015 was a rough year. Sad to say 2017 beat that year by a long shot! Both personal and business life was the worst and I was going down fast. I lost focus of my goals and took for granted that I could handle anything that was thrown at me.
Let’s talk business first because boy did I screw that up. After 4 years of working to climb up the ladder of management I finally become a General manager of a restaurant (McDonald). Unfortunately that only lasted 9 months before I was replaced. The owners sent in two GMs to “train” me to understand the whole operation. The owner used the word training, but with a 3 million dollar store you either understand the way things are or you don’t. Ok the only reason the second guy came in was because the 1st got himself fired after 2 weeks of being there. I ended up getting a new supervisor after 4 months in and from the gate he didn’t support me. It’s like my store became the punch lines to his jokes at meetings. From there I lost confidence and focus in my stats. It wasn’t till later did I find out the supervisor was looking for my replacement the whole time. All the while the second guy was “training” me, his ways of doing things were driving me crazy. No not his management skills, but the amount of drama that came with his presence. There wasn’t a day that went by that something crazy wasn’t being said or heard. Anywho after failing our shops and business visits it became too much. I never got enough people hired or even completely one set of schedules correctly. I was way too distracted with other task going on that the manager training me would do the schedules for me. The whole process was completely annoying seeing how I had to keep up with request offs for the crew. Anytime I put in a request off for a person the manager would put them right back on the day I had just removed them from. I caught hell form the crew that I didn’t care their needs or feelings. I began to hate everything about being there and found any reason to leave. My personal life had a big role to play tho as well. Honestly I feel like till this day I would’ve never walked out if it wasn’t for my relationship with my boyfriend also being shit. So much negative in my life one of them had to go.
As for my personal life my car payment got behind due to me paying on everything and everyone instead of the car. Which with me getting behind on payments later lead to me getting my car repoed. Guess who was around to help me out with that whole repo process….no one! The repo came after me quitting my job and getting a new job. Only with me being off work for a month it was not easy to catch up on that bill. If ever to have regretted anything iin life it would have to be the fact I lost that car. not to mention it was the first car I got on my own.
Back in 2015 my boyfriend cheated on me with his co worker, got with her, cheated on her with me, then got back with me. Ugh! He was my first love blah blah blah. The girl started dating my brother, then came to the house only for me to beat her up. In my opinion my brother and current boyfriend hyped that whole thing up. From there everything just kept getting worse. My boyfriend lost 2 jobs back to back and lived off unemployment the rest of 2017. We fought every night over little things here and there that I consider cheating was going on. I was at my all time dumbest thinking that year. The boy literally came before everything else. Oh and don’t let me forget that my little brother stole my 65′ TV out my apartment. No big deal or anything, that TV only cost me $700 that I bought with my taxes in 2016. Whatever…
Eight months in to 2018 and I must admit I’m not where I want to be, but I am focused. I came into this year with the idea/mindset that no one is going to give me anything. If I want anything at all I’ll have to be the one to make it happen. It has helped me a lot to forgive the things that people have done to wrong me over time. A complete weight has been lifted off my shoulders to not hate anyone. This year has beat last year by far and I pray that things keep going in the right direction.
Life is about the things that makes us happy. If not, than why are we here to begin with? My resolution was simply to find what made me happy again. Find what made me, me. I’m trying to go back to college this fall and start a second job at another call center. Pray for me guys this is going to be one hell of a ride these last few months! Bye 2017, see ya 2018!
