After Thought

It hasn’t been a year so I’m guessing that’s why it bothers me or possibly the idea of the lie. Feb 27th, 2017 I went to a rodeo for my birthday with the impression that I was invited because it was just that MY birthday. Before I continue let me bring you up to speed to that date.

So I was dating this guy for a year and 3 months before we broke up because he cheated on me with his coworker (another story for another time}. Unfortunately for me I was sooo in love with him like butterflies in your stomach, man walks on water, can’t eat, can’t sleep; don’t want to bathe without him being mine kind of love. After 2 weeks of dating I basically moved in with him, who happened to be living with his mother and step-father. So because I lived with his mom too we became close and I couldn’t just stop talking to her, she became family. I would hang out with his mother even though we weren’t together and spend the holidays there at her house. It got to the point I was even speaking to the girl he cheated on me with on the holidays. Lets just say I tried very hard to be an adult it was the respectable thing to do if I wanted the family to not completely X me out the picture.

It was a thing that the family went to the rodeo every year thanks to the husbands’ job. Most the time a couple times a year for the rodeo and then the Pro bull riding Rodeo (PBR). The time I was still hanging with the family I never heard of any stories of the PBR or seen Pics on Facebook so I decided to ask the mother if they had been to the rodeo that year and if they still were getting tickets. She replied that the husband hadn’t been able to get his hands on any tickets that year and she would let me know when some comes up. STOP! Did you catch that?

Ok so the day before my birthday the mother calls me and asked me what I had planned for my birthday. I had nothing planned really so she tells me that the husband got his hands on some tickets to the PBR on my actual birthday. How cool is that right?!! I was like hell yessss PBR on my birthday I’m in!!! I was so excited that the day of my birthday I skipped around work and couldn’t wait to get off!!! The mother text me when I was getting off to make sure I was coming so I let her know that I was on my way. Halfway there the mother text me again saying that the slut was coming too and that she hoped I don’t mind. Ok OK she didn’t say it like that but I’m like ok. I’m halfway to the house and now completely pissed that the slut was invited to an event on my birthday. It was the PBR after all so I wasn’t going to let her ruin it for me. So again I put on my adult panties and played nice. The girl had won $600 at the casino and was spending it left and right.

While sitting down at the show the mother wanted us to hold a banner that the husband made for the mother brother. In the mist of the explaining who the name of the band (mothers brother) was and why they made a banner, the truth came out that the family had got tickets this year and that they went to the PBR and then meet up with the brother later to watch his band play. Nothing is more important to me than family and moments of joy with your family so I was happy they were able to do that. It just wasn’t something to lie to me about.

After the rodeo we went to the cheesecake factory because I had been talking about it FOREVER, just kidding who knows why we really ended up there. I was just happy we went it was amazing!!! On the way home my Ex, her current starting texting wondering where she was at because it was 2am by time we were leaving. Come to find out he had to work which is why he wasn’t here with the family instead I was. My feelings were instantly hurt because here I was thinking that I was invited because it was my birthday and that the current girlfriend was later invited. When really the Ex couldn’t get off work in time to come because his store was shorthanded and I was a fill in for him. The mother looked at me as if she knew I caught on so I just turned my head and stared out the window the rest of the ride home.

Yes I was upset that I was an back up choice but I was more upset that I was lied to twice about the rodeo. Again I love the idea of family so I would have to completely understand that the mother would want her SON and current girlfriend to go instead of me the EX. That’s fine how could I get mad or even jealous of something like that? The mother tried to explain to me that they had 8 tickets and that even if the son could’ve gone the four of them would’ve went the next day to the show. Little does she know that the slut had already told me she took off for the 27th a week in advance and that she had to work the next day on the 28th. Soooo at this point I was feeling more and more like a fool and didn’t want to argue or even push the issue. What’s done was done. I can only hope that I won’t continue to be second place or an after though.