Time Loop

What causes the pull to be so strong? Why is it called history if we are still doing it and will continue doing it? You know how we look back on our past and attempt to learn from it and get nowhere? It is the stubborn part of us that wants so badly for things to workout in our favor. It is to the point what we have known, is what we now know, and will always know.

Basically it comes down to simply being comfortable with someone. Is love even an option anymore?
A close friend tells me that although her ex has cheated on her with the girl he is now with she still sleeps with him. The crazy thing is he was doing that with his first baby mama. She tells me that she is ready to build a family but is stuck on him. So I kindly tell her that she can’t build a family with someone new if she is stuck on someone else. “Seriously though how is that even fair to the new guy you are trying to be with now.” long story short the conversation goes on for hours and I get and I get nowhere with her. Months went by and she kept sleeping with her ex while he was with someone else and praying that she would be able to get over him one day. I sat back like, “So how about those cowboys” because that is a normal conversation changer like the weather. Only for her ex in the end to be the one to finally call it quits and stopped sleeping with her and tries the loyal thing with his current girlfriend. 

We are so smart yet so dumb for our own good. Damaged and in the loop they call “history”. So I ask again, “why is the pull so strong?” I blame love songs, poems, and movies for filling our heads with this happy ever after. That famous “girl talk” that we give each other and say well if you are loyal to him he will come back. UGH! Someone get me a bucket I think I am going to lose my lunch. We sit around hoping for a different outcome although we keep doing the same thing.

A time loop